my ans....

i duno...i jz.....cant let u go....i cant!!!!...i really cant.....
the 10 thing....i alr try my best to do it....whn i ask u....u say i did....so i jz believe it....i duno y u wan to lie to me....i realy duno....bt i'm angry....coz i try so hard to change for u....n u dun care....n jz simply say yes u did yes u did....wat u wan???.....
yes....i did...i admit....i be nice to venis....coz she love me....i wan to care bout her...coz i knw wat is the feeling whn the one u love doesnt care bout u....bt do u knw???.....everytime u jz think tat i love her....ok...i admit...i did love her....but jz abit....coz she is the one who make me hapy....CAN U THINK....IT JZ LIKE U N FRANCIS.....he make u hapy everytime u sad....thn u love him alr....rite???....is the same.....RITE??!!!! izit the same???....u ask urslf!!!!
u think i dun nid u huh????....u jz duno the true story...whn in sch...i always talk bout u....wit my fren....everytime i tell my fren...meow yun dun wan me anymore....n everytime i told them....i nearly cry out....they jz an wei me....thn i feel beter jor....if nt u go ask ivy n kimmy....u go ask them...izit in tis few day i gt sms them n ask them wat should i do...u ask them....everytime i oso tell them i cant let u go i cant let u go....till they get fed up n scold me....today...kimmy jz scold me....she call me to b open minded....i say i cant....thn she say....it ur prob thn....if u chose nt to let her go...thn other ppl say wat oso cant help u jor....c...even them oso get fed up of me....coz of wat....coz i dun wan to let u go n kip on hurt myslf....
i very regret....to treat u like tat....i duno y....everytime i lost sumthing oni i regret...izit tat's wat ppl always do???.....can i go ask the god???.....how to meet wit the god???....izit whn v die thn we can meet the god???.....i wan to ask the god tis question nw....izit mean tat i have to die nw???

ur post....

u dn trust me?
fine..u trust or dn trust i dn care..
but i really din find him from tat day..
how bout u?
can trust u?
sory! can't!! I CAN'T TRUST U!!!
U stil rmb the 10 things?
ya.. that u ask me rite?
ALL my ans jz fake.. i jz wish i wish will more love U!!!
finally can't!!
U said u love me?
ya!! u r..Don kai lui??
NO!!! U GOT!!!
i'm always nt bside u how cn i knw u gt anot??
even got also din tell me~!!!
U nid me?!!
NO~!! U don need~!!!
Why wan like tis?
From now i really regret for know u..
DAMN REGRET!!
Y i wan call ai wei intro u to me?
haiz.. why?

my answer is....

yeah....i knw....i too over....coz i din msg u...bt i'm bz wit my hw....i have to study....coz if i din get gud result....my mum will rampas my hp...my comp....n even will rampas away all my sport time....i knw...its nt important to u....but its important to me....u knw how much i love sport rite???...i have no choice....i'm sory....i really really sory for tis....

ur post....

Y u din msg me?
even msg also the little bit!WAT THE HELL~
I reply u at afternoon..
thn oni u reply me at night..
WAT THE!!Jz the 1 msg oni?!!
F***

tat all wat i wan to say....

ok...here is the ans....y i cant find topic to chat....y cant i make u haoy....is all bout u....u r the one who dun wan to be hapy n u dun wan to company me....whn i reply sumthing....u jz reply emm...oh....en....ok....lol....=.=....
how i continue to chat???....can u think???....n nt i dun wan to make u hapy n be sweet to u....i think i alr try my best....is u again...u dun wan to let me make u hapy....i did say i love u everytime...but u jz reply oh....but IF IS FRANCIS.....whn he say i love u to u....wat u will do??....of coz is smile n jump here n there hapily....do u knw y tat's diferent for me n him whn saying i love u???.....coz in ur heart.....u hate me...even how i care bout u....u wont care....in ur heart u love him....of coz even a little word like muackz its enugh to make u hapy.....izit true??? try to think....izit wat i'm saying is true??? think....is u dun wan to give chance to me.....

tat is your post

"actually i like B[A=kenneth;B=francis]
but A very love me.. wat should i do?
but A nth to chat v me,n also dn knw hw to find topic..
1 time.. i sick,my mui also at the same time..
But he more care bout his kai mui.. damn sad tat time..
thn i go tell B.. B very sayang me..always care bout me..
always make me happy n sweet..
But i stupid til Call him dn msg me n i wont find him again..
cauz i wan concentratte on A.. haiz.. kinda regret..I hurt him so much.."

i still waiting....

i very miz u....i still waiting for u.....haiz....my life still bored coz i haven get u back....i really very regret....i love u....muackz....

for u again....

i love u Meow Yun....Muackz....

wat happen??!!! i so confuse....

tis time i ask u...."do u like him??"....thn u reply "NO!"...WAt???!!!!....wat's going on???......y ur ans will kip on changing???......it jz like sumtime u say u like me.....sumtime u say dun...wat is tis all bout....a test???......thn i ask u..."do u like me??".... u reply ...."abit".....so wat's hapen again???......thn i ask...."izit u wan to avoid from loving him so u cal me to make u love me back??"....thn u say..."i had choose u"....WOW!!! really?? izit true???....its like u giving me hope again...but i'm scare too...coz ltr u will break my heart again....u oso say u will concentrate on me....so izit mean that my chAnce is high???.....i hope so.....i really wan to be wit u.....i dun wan hope...i wan!!!.....

Do u really love him???

haiz....everytime u say "y cant u make me hapy like francis did?"...i will be very very sad....i wil think tat..."izit u love him???"...my mind was full wit question mark....wat shud i do nw???.....his my fren....thn i ask u..."izit u like him??"....thn u reply..."yes.." wat??!!!....u really like him??....oh gosh....wat can i do nw???....i was so sad at tis time....wat can i do???...anyone can lead me to a beter situation??.....haiz.....no one can....GOD....help me plz....i dun wan to suffer in pain anymore....u told me u dun like me anymore....oh my god....after suffer so much pain jz to get u to like me back for a little bit...nw u lost it....its nt the mater of wasting my time...is i dun wan to get more pain....the more u hurt me...the more i wan u to get back wit u....wat shud i do....??? help me....i sms u for alot of msg....but u din reply....maybe u haven finish training....but all the msg is true...i really mean it....i hope u knw how much i nid u....how much i love u....Meow Yun....

Did u????

i wondering....do u still like me....do ur heart really have me???.....whn u say i love u to me....do u really mean it????.....or jz say to make me stop crying???.....nw my hapiness all burn up bcome dust....its all gone....my light in life....where is it???.....WHERE??!!!.....my sadness is back....n i start droping tear again....my old life where back....life tat full wit sadness....problem...tears....i realy love u meow yun....plz....

I NID U MEOW YUN

"I'm nt ANgry for ANything on ur BLog...N also no feelings...GIVE UP!!try to follow she...IF u'r really CAre bout her...U GO!GO! GO!!Don waste her time for waiting u..KENNETH TAN KOON MING... " (i...duno wat to say....i care bout her....doesnt mean i nid to follow her....its like i care bout ur mui....ai wei....but i dun love her....i jz care....coz she's my fren....ur mind is too childish....try to ask ur FRANCIS......ask him...izit care mean love????...GO!!!!! ask him......he has a great mind of thinking....i dare to admit....i ask him b4....shud i continue to love a gurl tat doesnt like me even abit or care bout me???....thn he say..."if me....i will...." so tat wat i did....continue to love u....but i sure nw u thinking tat i jz do coz tat wat he say....NO!!!!....i jz nid ppl to advise me.....control me.....i really love u....but jz u dun value my true heart....wat can i do???....kip on waiting???.....Yes....i will....even u wan me to use my blood to write ur name....i can....its nt pain....coz no mater how oso nt pain as my heart....i really love u....n i nid u....)

Stupid thing huh????

"WELl..Kenneth...MayBe Venis is te 3th girl who loves u so much N MUCH!with true heartx...YA.!!SHe LOve U!!SHE do STUPID THINGS B'COZ OF U!!IF me??I wont!I wont to stupid things for U..REmember!I wont~..." (yes....maybe....but wat can i do??? call she stop love me???.....she wanna be wit me.....but i wanna be wit U!!!!.....she might be the 3rd gurl....so???.....i nid to acept her love???.....NO!!!!!....coz in my heart got U!!!!!......i dun care u will do anything or nt....all i nid is ur love....n ur heart......)

all is bout her huh???

"I don knw who r U..N i dn knw Y r'u so SO~~ LOVe HIM til do stupid thingS!! WAT for?" (she is the one who cheer me up whn i feel sad....yes...i knw wat u thinking....u will call me go kau her or wateva fucking thing rite???......but fuck it....i wont do it....coz all i knw is i care bout her....n i love u....i CARE BOUT HER.....N I LOVE U.....U!!!! meow yun.....plz read properly.....)

when see jor ur msg very gek sam u knw?

"when see jor ur msg very gek sam u knw?Haiz..View jor ur msg lagi no mood.." (wat msg i sent to make u no mood???.....huh??.....all msg i sent nearly is bout trying to make u hapy....n beging u to acept me back....saying i still love u very much.....tat's wat will make u no mood huh???.....izit???!!!....tell me!!!!!.....)

HOw coulu U CN"T MAKE ME HAPPY LIKE FRANCIS?!!!

"HOw coulu U CN"T MAKE ME HAPPY LIKE FRANCIS?!!" (wat??!!!....i tohught i did try....i think b4....n i feel tat....the main prob....is his ur fren.....n i'm ur enemy....wat i did....u wont care....u wont feel it.....izit tat's y u wont be hapy or having any feel whn i alr try my best to make u hapy???.....i din change my way to making gurl hapy....its still the same....last time whn i say anything.....u will reply thx dar....or wateva....but nw....u 100% will oni reply..."oh"...."emm"...."hmm"...."en".....wat to do???...i alr try....but jz u dun feel hapy doesnt mean i cant......maybe u like francis....so tat even little bit word can make u smile.....but for me.....even i cut out my heart u oso wont smile or cry....wat can i do????....who the fucking can help me....????.....god....plz....let me out of this hell....i dun wanna be in the dark n hot hell......it jz will cover all my bright in my life n burn up all my hapiness.....oh god...plz....)

tis is for u de....Meow Yun....

"Izit I'm lying myself?"
"Izit I'm forcing myself to love u?"
"Izit my heart gt a little space of u?"
" Izit tat correct for chosing U??"
wat??!!!....u duno???....after giving me so much hope....c...tat's wat i say...u always giving me hope...but thn u will broke my heart...after viewing ur tis post....my heart broke jor....i asking myslf...."izit tat's no way to bring up our relation again???.....or u jz testing my patient everyday???....jz to c izit i love u tat much....izit???"....i so confuse.....i duno wat to do....wat can i do??....wat SHUD i do???...anyone???.....anyone cn come to help me???...the ans is no....oni u....r the main key....to open this lock....let me knw the ans....oni u.....can light up my life....let me be hapy....coz u r my everything.....i love u....Meow Yun.....

for u.....Meow Yun....

i love u Meow Yun....muackz

days without u....like passing time in hell....

i still waiting for u....Meow Yun......

u finaly update ur blog.....

hemm....finally....new thing appear in ur blog....i go n see....n in my mind all is..."holy shit"....is nt talking bout ur post is suckz...is me....myslf is suckz.....how can i cant realise that u waiting me to talk to u....damn hate myslf.....i have lost a good chance....to talk wit the gurl i love the most.....haiz.....damn sad nw....i cant believe tat wat u write in blog is nt same wit in sms.....in tat day.....u jz kip call me focus on competition....n u still tell me tat....we r here to competition....nt here to find feeling....tat msg hurt me the most....after tat msg....i very sad.....i told francis wat hapen....thn he laugh at me.....n call me focus.....so i try to stop thinking u for bout 1 hour like tat....n i made it....its good rite???.....erm....the first junior team.....i standing wit francis.....i think....YES!!!! i'm looking at u....n i saw u like looking at me too....but thn i say to myslf...she alr nt love u, damn fucker......so i din look at u anymore.....coz i thought u very hate me.....n summore i nid to focus....whn ur turn to perform....i kip on looking at u.....wat u do....where u go....my eye jz follow.....but thn i saw u look at me awhile....i scare i will disturb u....so i change my view n look at other....so u willl ike duno tat i kip on looking at u......even everytime i passby ur team.....i kip on say to francis...."francis arh....she at there arh....haiz...."....yes....i'm sad.....very very gek sum.....bt wat cn i do???...nth....after saw wat ur fren tell u....i'm sad....coz u "sucess to 4get me".....n i duno wat's the 2nd thing???.....the put my hand on their shoulder.....i dun understand.......haiz.....yup....i will remain sad coz u still nt my gurl yet....gud for u to knw....but did we sms like couple???....i duno.....

My love....Meow Yun.....

Tis is Meow Yun....tis is the gurl i love the most....i very very love her....muackz muackz.....Sory Meow Yun....Will u acept me back??? i wan to be wit u no matter wat is cost...i too love u.....

days 15th without u....another case?!

2day is alr 15th day without u.....i still sad....coz sumtime u give me hope....but sumtime u really broke my heart.....but yet i still so love u....wat shuld i do??....so confuse.....haiz.....anyway....i wan to say is....i very very love u....Meow Yun....
WAt???!!!! another case???.....OMG....y.....y must always be like tat???...last time whn i wit jane....here come other gurl....n i'm damn stupid to chose the another gurl n hurt jane much till i regret.....n now....the same situation again....i alr lost meow yun once....n i regret much.....but nw i feel tat i have chance....to get back wit her....tis is the very rare chance....so....wat cn i do???.....i oni can let u go.....i knw u treat me great.....n i oso knw u love me much....but i dun wan lost my good chance to get back with meow yun......coz i really love her much......plz.....dun coz of me thn go do stupid stupid thing...plz....it will hurt me too.....plz.....ok???....i care bout u too.....plz....wake up!!!.....

Another pic for u 2day....

i still love u meow yun....still hope u will acept me back one day.....

confuse....

2day i ask u will u acept me back.....u say will de lar.....but nt the time yet.....bt whn at nite....u tell me tat nw u vry hapy.....enjoying life....ENJOYING LIFE????......y will u so fast knw how to say enjoying life??? u jz form 2.....u like so mature....like those parents always say i'm old....nid to enjoy life nw....u jz form 2......do u really nid to 'ENJOY LIFE' nw? thn u say u having alot fun wit those boy in sch.....wat does it mean??? having alot fun??? n u say u wont be like tat whn u couple....wat's tat mean again??? i so confuse....help me......anyone???......NO!!!! u r the oni hope of mine....u really r my everything...i cant live without u....i love u....MEOW YUN....

i love u.....

MEOW YUN......I LOVE U!!!!!!

for u....Meow Yun.....

i very very love u MEOW YUN...plz....4give me n acept me back....

11th day without her.....wat a sucks afternoon.....

whn going back....i sms her....begging her to acept me back....she kip on refuse n refuse....i very sad jor....i think i alr beg her for at least 8 days....calling her to acept me back....bt yet...she dun wan....haiz....so so so so SAD......whn reach home.....i went to bath....i cry out in the bathroom....tis is nt my 1st time to cry in bathroom....alr alot time jor......i finish taking bath....but i still crying...i wanna stop....but i cant....i really cant stop....if my mum knw i cry for love.....she will slap me.....for sure....coz i try b4.....so i dun wan to let her knw....after jz finish taking bath...i went to do homework....n yet i stilll crying....haiz....T.T.....thn i went to sleep....b4 sleep....i view her pic in my hp again....fuck it!!!! i cry more louder....shit it....i cant let my mum knw....so i taking my pilow....cover my face.....n b4 sleep...i edit a pic for u jor.....haiz....i very very sad......i wan to be wit u.....plz.....MEOW YUN.....i very very love u.....

Competition day....

2day i having competition at Dataran Merdeka. Having rope skipping competition....kinda scare....then i saw her....start to miss her.....love her....i was very sad coz she dun wan me anymore......wat the fuck have i done.....damn regret....coz i have lost the 2nd gurl tat love me much....i duno whn can i found the 3rd gurl tat love me much de....who can give me some clue???...wat shud i do??? or wat cn i do???...thn we start to warm up.....i kip on thinking bout her...thn i start to be nt concentrate....do wat oso stuck.....i start getting worry.....thn i sms her....she did reply....but....all the word...jz make me getting worst....getting more nt concentrating on the competition....tat time i really like wanna cry.....but i cant...."i having competition now"...i tell myslf....but yet i cant stop thinking bout her.....thn i tell my teammate....francis n kimmy.....thn they scold me....call me to be concentrate.....thn i jz saying oh...oh....bt in my heart....i cant do it.....haiz....everytime i pass by her team....i wil like wan to talk to her....but thn i will jz think..."she hate u, jz 4get bout it"......so i din talk to her at all 2day....damn sad.....heart pain....whn competition start.....her team is the second team....whn she performing her routine....she look enjoying.....smiling.....i jz like...HAIZ.....b4 tat she wil smile to me....loving me...bt nw....she dun even look at me.....whn team no. 5 performing....we start to warm up our routine....coz we are team no.10......my shoe....so slipery.....i bcome more scare....scare i will fall down whn competition....whn reach our team to perform....i have sucess to stop thnking bout her for the FEW MINUTES......in our routine.....ok ok lar.....i din stuck much lar....bt oso gt......whn doing the stunt tat i worry the most....i really din sucess.....bt din fall down lar....till the end....whn doing the post.....i knocked my back....ouch!!! pain man.....thn all my teammate lying on floor.....i'm the 1st to stand up thn i call them stand up jor.....that' all....our routine finish.....kinda hapi coz we jz train for 5 time thn go competition jor....summore still got 3 new comer in our group.....overall....ok.....thn we go walking around....me, francis, wah zai.....siting bside the stall selling 100plus......talking bout dota.....thn here come the gurl i love the most......wit my kai mui....n oso duno 1 is who....thn i sit bside francis....continue chat bout dota....thn i heard gt shuffle show....so i went to c...erm.....wat so nice....like ntg different....duno how to c....thn we went back to our place (the place having rope skipping competition lar)....thn i walking wit wah zai....he call thomas do handspring....he can stand....but wah zai cant....wahahahaha......thn i oso do.....n continue wit back handspring......i did 7 time...thn i very dizzy so i stop n i kneel in the field for few second....omg....my white long pant dirty jor....thn i sit down....play wit my rubik cube....here come my memory to my mind again....i was playing rubik cube n she was watching bside me....tis is last time lar.....for nw....even i do wat....she oso wont look at me anymore.....till the time to get our result....wow....our team get no.4....still in top 5....ok lar......thn i went back home....i tell francis....."francis....i going home jor....francis....i going home jor"....i repeat few time....thn he say ya la ya la....he knew i bu she de coz i have chance to c her....but i have to go....so....tat's all for tis morning till afternoon.....

8th day without u....

haiz....i still sad....still miz u..still love u....i wan u back...plz....dun leave me....i dun wan be alone.....plz.....i beg u......if i do the 10 thing tat i promise....will u acept me back???? i'm waiting n waiting n waiting......everyday every second...waiting u to acept me back......i promise....i really change....realy realy realy change for u......i wan u to knw how much i love u....plz.....

bOred day....

2day i very bored.....having tuition for 4hour 30 min....so long....but while tuition...sumone pui me too....i'm hapy....haha....then suddenly i think of u....wat have we pass through 2geter....i was sad n regret....n sum word i wan to say out...so i edit tis pic....this is the 6th pic.....for u....i still love u.....

single base....hard....

erm....ytrday i do single base....flyer is venis....nt heavy.....but yet i drop her down for few time...sorry venis....realy sorry.....but thn siew wai teach me how to push her down n catch her.....i try the 1st time....jz catch 1 of her hand....nt very gud....thn i try 2nd time.....i catch her whole ppl but i fell down....so she fell too...i think...n she kik ah kit whn she fell.....sory again....but i'm happy to try it....cheer is so fun......

i'm back to SINGLE now

y ppl wont care bout wat they have whn they still have it....till we lost it thn oni we knw how to cry...izit worth to do so????? i have repeat me old mistake....n nw i'm regret....i duno wat to do.....thinking how will u accept me back.....y will i so stupid???? treat u like nth whn having u....treat u like everything whn lost u.....izit u too good to me till i dare to bully u??? i guess.....the ans is yes.....i cnt believe tat i did tis to the gurl tat love me wit true heartx.....wat shud i do nw??? 14/2 coming.....izit my chance???? or is the day to being alone....watching other couple.....holding hand....smiling to each other.....being happily togeter.....haiz.....wat shud i do??? who can help me????? nobody can......will i lost u 4ever???? in tat day.....14/2...r u going out wit other????? will i have chance to celebrate wit u???? wit real coupling???? who knw....but for myslf....i guess nope....i really wil be alone at tat day......haiz.....damn regret for my stupid mistake.....